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insomnia

i want to sleep but i can't and it sucks.
i don't feel good.
i don't know waht to say anymore. stuff is exploding. i don't like it. i just want to be happy again and i'm not. i just want to cuddle and sleep and watch movies but there's no one to cuddle with and no movies are on and sleep isn't happening. im just gonna sit here for a while and deal with it.
or i'm going to lie down and face the wall. one ofthe two.

ugh. i give up. even i'm sick of me right now.
but i can't change. i've tried. this is just who i am right now. i guess i'll just learn to love myself or some bullshit like that. cuz no one else is gonna love me. that much is obvious.

posted by emma @ 11:51 PM