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oh so tired of being sick

yeah... msi was a good time until i got sick. i threw up twice last night and i feel like i'm going to again. it's awesome. well, at least i got to see a bunch of people i haven't seen in a while.

right now i feel like i'm just drifting about without purpose. i've felt like this for a long while. i just don't have anything to focus on; when i was still in school, the focus was on making it through to graduation day. now all i do is read books. i need another job or a class or something. i feel like the dorky kid at a dance who just stands in the cornere and watches everything happen cuz nobody will dance with her.

when i cheer up i'll write more about msi. it really was a good time. erik was moshing. in his "recruiter- looking for a few good men" t-shirt. and mick looked like a total poser in his polo and khaki shorts, but he was singing along. and i talked to a guy who reminded me of lucky, this icky guy from the icp house. in fact, it probably was him. and then there was this short kid with a mohawk and a lisp who was dehydrated, so i gave him half of my water. and most of the people i talked to were really nice. and i met lyn, who's really cool. and christi and pat were there too.

posted by emma @ 9:22 AM