*****

i hate men

man what i would do to be a bitch like kate right now ("i hate men" is a song in kiss me kate).

boys are driving me nuts. all of them.
i'm sick of feeling wounded. i want to be a complete person again, and it's just not working. damnit, i still miss him and i'm going to for a long time. everything reminds me of him because he's been a part of almost everything for two years now. i've known him since my sophmore year. i miss telling him everything and hearing his crazy drunk stories (as much as i hate to admit it). i know mick is a great friend and substitute for paul in some ways and dylan is the coolest and we have a great connection, but i'm missing being part of a twosome and having someone to talk to before bed and laughing at in jokes and ..... everything.
i just wanna be whole again.

*this moment of weakness is never to be mentioned again*

posted by emma @ 9:09 PM