*****

unable to be upset...

So I know that if I wasn't on antidepressents, I would be unhappy right now. Paul decided "if it's meant to be, it will be." and for now, we're taking a break. I fucking let him walk right over me because I care for him. I don't know why I do this to myself, but it sucks. He used me, he's happy. I cared for him, I got burned. The worst part is, I'm not even mad at him. I'm mad at myself!
My candidate lost and it sucks. It's my future and I couldn't even help decide it. So the next four years are going to be worse than the last, and I can't fix it.

It's a pissy sort of day.

posted by emma @ 5:12 PM