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my baby's good to me

i can't fix myself and it's really getting scary. my hands and feet are tingling, and i can't fix it. i'm having a major anxiety attack, and nothing i do makes it better. i have to go to school, and i'm shaking (i was hyperventillating, so i used my inhaler) and near tears. i was crying for about 10 minutes on the phone with Paul, who is being really good about this. he just keeps talking to me and trying to make things better. i owe him for being so cool with my psychotic episodes.
i'm starting to calm down, but for how long? i can usually make it through a school day without freaking out, (i did yesterday) but what if i can't ? what do i do then? excuse myself from class and go cry in the bathroom?

i'm scared. that's what it comes down to.

posted by emma @ 9:26 AM