*****

lynch mob anyone?

so anyone who hurts my cousin dies, got it? this means anyone who makes her cry, causes her physical pain, or even pisses her off. i mean it.

posted by emma @ 8:22 PM 0 comments

there needs to be food here

Erik said something about buttercream frosting on graham crackers. It sounds really good right about now.

I almost bought lots of stuff today, but I settled for two pair of undies. One pair says "happy time" and has alligators kissing with rainbow hearts and stars. I'm soooo excited to wear them.

Christi: the only problem with calling you is that your line is always busy or you don't pick up. call me tomorrow after 8 if you can.

posted by emma @ 7:53 PM 0 comments

i need the smell of summer

Yeah. Stole that from Claire's away message. And Brand New.

I'm pretty much sick of everything right now, including caf work, people who laugh like stupid frat boys, drunks, liars, the Odyssey, high school, jeans, my chucks, apartment rulebooks, college shit, sleeping poorly, people who make my cousin sad, people who act like I'm invisible and get in my way, 76 Trombones, the phrase "kitchen can i please have more...", my black sweatshirt, my house, my mother, my car, gas prices, being here, my grandfather's bullshit, not being left alone when i want to be alone, and people eating all my gummy worms.

Now I have to go deal with almost all of the above.

Fuck. 23 days.

posted by emma @ 8:07 PM 1 comments

IHARM

We started a club today. I'm the secretary. I Hate (ames of two coworkers). HeeHee.

So... I think I'm going to Norbie's next year. I'm a little scared, but I think it'll be ok. I'll probably transfer after freshman year to a UW school though. Oh man, this whole thinking of the future thing is scary. I've never been one of those decisive people, so choosing a school is hard. I've never been one of those people who knew what they wanted to do either, so it's really difficult to pinpoint one thing to do. *There's more to say but I won't bore anyone anymore than I already have*. Odyssey is driving me insane. We're soooooo far behind and no one is willing to help out. Plus, I have to go to work tomorrow instead of being at the meeting. Fuck.

Damn. I don't know. I wanna see Greg. I need a hug.

posted by emma @ 8:04 PM 0 comments

AAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!

I'm sooooooo stressed. Make it stop! I just spent an hour searching every submission for this years odyssey. i have hours (no joke) of science and french to do. i have to work in one hour. i have more odyssey things to do that aren't going to get done on time. i have to go to the bank and look for jobs after my doctor's appointment tomorrow, which means i have to dress nicely which means laundry. i have to get money off of dad for my cap and gown and i have to clean my room. all i want to do is sleep and watch tv, but it doesnt look like either will be happening anytime soon.

i seriously don't even know how to get this done. my body's idea is sleep. i'm exhausted. last night i was so tired on the way home that i fell asleep on greg's lap. i had such a good day yesterday and wouldn't change it for the world, but i really should have been working on stuff. actually, i was going to do my homework on friday night, but i ended up at skip's with claire pj and keef instead. damn. i don't even have time to post right now.

posted by emma @ 2:09 PM 0 comments

is it the weekend yet?

I can't take this much longer.... It needs to be Saturday. Like now.

So I went to the dentist today. Nothing very exciting about that. Today has been boring in general. I have to work soon, so that's at least soemthing to do . I have a shitload of work to do tonight on Odyssey stuff and science and French. I have to do a buttload of laundry too.

I'm excited for next wednesday. I haven't hung out with Dylan since spring break and it's weird not seeintg him houtside of school. Wednesday is my only day off next week, which kinda scares me, but I really need the hours. I need a regular job for the summer too.

Wow. Things have been pretty boring lately, huh?
Oh wait.... a few days ago at school the activities director used the term "indian giver" at a school assembly. apparantly, it didn't strike him as a bad idea to say that at a school where wer have a large native american population. so he had to apologize to the whole school yeserday. but seriously, that's been the big entertainment around here.

posted by emma @ 3:28 PM 1 comments

we're off to see the wizard

So work would have totally sucked had it not been for Tracy. She and I skipped about, much to the people's delight. I have come to the conclusion that Tracy is one of the coolest people ever.
That is all.

posted by emma @ 8:05 PM 0 comments

*deep breath*

So today was quite good until about two minutes ago. My dad came in and accused me of being somewhere other than where I was. He of all people should know that I'm not the kid he has to worry about. I was sitting at Claire's doing my fucking homework. People should fucking go away and leave me alone.

Other than that, I've actually had a good day. We almost have out lit and media project done and I got to sit outside and hopefully become less pale. Last hour, all I had to do was sit about and be bored and I painted my toenails when I got home from Claire's. Now I'm just sitting around trying to remember to take my pill so I can be done with thte antibiotics. I think I'll go take that now.

posted by emma @ 7:35 PM 0 comments

save tonight

I finally know why I like that song so much. Such a bittersweet weekend, as always.

What to say...... Well, I hung out with Greg a lot. We went to John's on Friday night and Claire threw water baloons made of Eryc's condoms at us. Saturday, I hung out with Amanda and Claire and Greg came later. Today, Claire and I got fuzzy posters! And I hung out with Greg for a while at his house. We watched SLC Punk on Friday, and I've been giggly ever since.

I need a job. Yes, I've said it before, but this is bad. Fuck Net is being bitchy and I need a place with regular hours. And, I got my aid forms. I'm fucked. But that's ok cuz I have bigger things to worry about. Like the homework I've been putting off for two weeks. *Thinks happy thoughts about things other than homework*

Well... it's time to get to that lit and media project i've been putting off.

posted by emma @ 6:58 PM 0 comments

did you ever think that you would be this blessed?

Oh man, I had quite the night. I had to go to firstcare for some issues, at which point they proceeded to interrogate me, make me pee into a cup, and eventually give blood to them. It was good fun. Especially when the scary people in the waiting room left because on of them had cops waiting on her porch.

So, I'm still sickly. I get to see my normal doctor today, I think. I'm kinda worried because I"ve never been sick like this before. My head hurts and I'm really tired and pale. Maybe it's still the sinus infection because I don't think it's gone away.
In other news.... I'm going to work my ass off on homework today. Yay!
Maybe I'll post more later.

posted by emma @ 8:14 AM 0 comments

mmm butter

We have real butter! I'm so happy! Tomorrow, when I'm sitting here killing time before Day of Silence, I'm gonna have toast with jam and REAL BUTTER.

So... Day of Silence.... I hope it's cool. I'm gonna have a hard time not talking, but I'll get over it. We're having a big GSA party thing at night called Night Of Noise and it's gonna be supercool! I almost bought rainbow suspenders, but good sense prevailed.

Hmmmm.... bored. Sitting here thinking about nothing in particular. Can't leave cuz I don't have a car (Dad took it). Bored.

posted by emma @ 7:25 PM 1 comments

something worth posting

Greg's away message: hey guess what? i have a girlfriend!and i love her to death (in the good way!)

*gets all warm and fuzzylike*

hey guess what? i have a boyfriend! and i love him to death too! (in a good way!)

posted by emma @ 10:14 AM 2 comments

greg was right

i shouldn't have eaten that chinese food yesterday.

i had an anxiety attack during lit and media. yay! so i came home and now i'm being an emo whore. tbs makes me less anxious/more happy except for the bitter loneliness part (cuz i'm happily unbitter and unlonely).

maybe i should sleep or something. or not.
maybe i'll post more later is something worth talking about happens.

posted by emma @ 9:45 AM 0 comments

perfection

mmmmmm.... i feel all happy/fuzzy and stuff....

This was a good weekend. I got to see Greg a lot. And by a lot I mean Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Poor kid had to deal with me for ten hours on Saturday. Now I'm wearing some strange chapstick that's like a cross between cherry and mint. Now I just have to get through the week knowing what I'm missing.

"are you smart enough to keep your distance? you can't decide, you can't decide."

i don't know if i'm capable of doing my homework tonight, but i kinda have to. damn. it needs to be the weekend agian.

posted by emma @ 7:03 PM 0 comments

these apples are delicious

can all this fruit be free?

So.... time for a bitchy post about things I dislike about right now. If you want to see happier things, skip the list and go to the bottom of the post.
Things that suck:
1. placement exams. I'm going to study my ass off tonight for those mothers.
2.People who think they know more about my job when I've been there twice as long as they have. I think I know what my job is and how to do it after two and a half years at that godforsaken place.
3. Cars. Damn gas is at 2.35 a gallon.
4. People. They suck.
5. Birth control. It's not useful right now and all it does is make me horny (seriously).
6. Teachers who don't know how to teach/don't teach you the right stuff before placement exams, making you responsible for four verb tenses.
7. Stupid people who should be in the special ed class but are in my classes instead (esp. Advanced Physical Science).
8. Stuff.

OTher than that, I'm pissy about having to stay home and study on a Friday night. But I'm excited for the day I will be having tomorrow after the exams. Yay! Sunday is going to be good too I think. I have to meet Michael at noon and we're going to read through the script for his play. But mostly, I'm excited about tomorrow.

posted by emma @ 7:06 PM 0 comments

Night Off

It's so nice to not have to work right now. My computer is slow a s hell though, which is driving me nuts. I'm kinda stressed about this weekend's testing, but oh well. I'm going to sew and clean my room tonight. I just bought some pretty blue jersey fabric from dylan's work. I brought him to work and he showed me the eyeless flamingos. We went to the mall too, and I was going to buy some cute flipflops, but they were too expensive. And since gas is going to be going up again, I'd better save some cash.

So there's not much to say.

posted by emma @ 5:01 PM 0 comments

sucker for anything acoustic

Mmmmm..... today is a Brand-New sorta day. I want a tshirt that says "Sucker for anything acoustic" and on the back it should say something to the effect of "but i do appreciate Brand New".

Yay! I'm gonna have a supercool Saturday (after the placement exams)!

So work is the devil. Enough said.

Man Claire and I were going to be kandi ravers tomorrow but i don't have the patience for it.

Girly moment of the day: I bought new good-smelling shampoo. No more cherry jello, but still yummy-smelling

Joe: good luck with the new chucks! they will serve you well.

Now I'm listening to "Magazines" (i think that's the title) "girl come to me, the only brokenhearted loser you'll ever need or i'll be left alone forever with my magazines"

posted by emma @ 8:54 PM 0 comments

when i was a child, i spoke as a child

i wish i could remember what i said (Todd Snider).

So as a change from the usual emo stuff, I decided to listen to Todd Snider today. I like his music. I have the song "Lonely Girl" stuck in my head. I think that's the title, but i'm not so sure. The chorus is "hey there lonely girl have i got a lonely boy for you". It's a good song about how he met his wife in rehab.

Work was... warm. Really warm. All I wanted to do was go outside and I was stuck in a steamy, stinky room full of fish and mashed potatoes. Well, it wasn't all I wanted to do, but it was definately high on my list. And this is the only time when any bad double meanings you come up with for that aren't true.

We got a project today for Lit and Media, because apparantly spending your break doing one doesn't mean you deserve a couple of days off. Oh well. Michael, Sara, Claire, and I are doing a magazine together, so it's gonna be awesome.

"don't shoot guns, don't be violent"
*is happy because of many things, including a guy who now reads this and the awesome Todd Snider music*

There's other, more unhappy stuff to talk about, but I don't wanna.

posted by emma @ 8:51 PM 0 comments

i don't think i'll ever come back down

man.... i have to lay off the taking back sunday.

i have to work this week a lot. and i keep staying up late talking to greg. oh well. at least i get to have some fun. i hate my job. oh well. i hate just about everything today.

i'm feeling kinda high-strung and crabby. hopefuly that will fix itself at work.

posted by emma @ 3:35 PM 1 comments

boys and other good stuff

So..... Claire set me up with a guy. His name is Jeremy. I like his friend Greg. Greg with one g at the end. Greg is neato and stuff. Jeremy is a cool guy, but he's not my type. I don't know what to say about Greg. He's cool (in a Ritchie Cunningham sort of way lol). I think I'll leave it at that.

So other than that, nothing good happening. I lost an earring. I have to go to school tomorrow. The usual. BTW, "Cellular" is a bad movie. Don't watch it. Ever.

Christi you should call me. I work until 8 every night but Thursday.

posted by emma @ 7:58 PM 1 comments