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stay 18 forever?

that song confuses me. if this is all i have to look forward to.... damn.
so i found a tshirt that says "i'm not with stupid anymore." i want it. paul and i broke up last night. i'm very angry with him for a variety of reasons, the cheif one being that he didn't bother to say how he felt. ever. in fact, i didn't want to date him as much as i wanted to know where i stood with him. then he asked me out because that's what he thought i wanted. so the past few weeks have been miserable because of his pretending to be happy with me and my still being frustrated with the situation. and then it's all my fault because, heaven forbid, i want a relationship with someone. fuck this shit.
college..... grrrrrr. i give up. i don't know where i'm going or what i'm doing and that scares me but doesn't worry me. ? i don't even make sense anymore.

on happier notes.....
NEW YORK IS FUCKIN' AWESOME! I sang Mozart's Requiem at Carnegie Hall! New York. The name itself is music. I love it there. I can't even find a more eloquent way to put it.
well, that does it for me.

posted by emma @ 8:39 PM