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i'm bad at keeping up with things

i have a dog now. his name is barnaby the big dumb doggie. he's an airedale/black lab mix and he's adorable and ugly and i love him. chris does too, even though he won't admit it. barnaby is six and is very excited to have a home, which means that his tail is a weapon and he protects his new mommy at all costs from the scary little furry things that try to go near her (the kitties). munchies and cooper are hanging out in the kitchen for now, and boomer just wanders about crying, wondering what to do with all the new space. i'm moved in almost completely, which is pretty damn cool. chris hangs out there a lot, which is cool cuz he takes the dog out. the hicks upstairs are ok; the guy and i hang out and have pit fires in the backyard. two days ago, jerry came down with a smoky treat for me and chris :). Lately, i've been chilling at home a lot; work is becoming UNBEARABLE, mostly because i'm dr soncrant's new enemy. apparently i'm incompetent and useless. oh well. i had an interview at kolbe accounting, and i'm waiting on them to call me back. i really hope i get that job. it's an opportunity to start all over again and learn some new things at a higher pay rate.

i've been depressed lately, but it was mostly because of the big changes in my life- dog, boyfriend, job worries, moving,and some more things. cassandra, a woman i feel fortunate to have met through women's studies programs and rainbow alliance activities, died in a car accident a few weeks ago. cassandra taught me to be a woman, and to not be ashamed of it; she was the type of person who was passionate about everything in her life from women's rights issues to the project she was working on. she electrified everything she touched, and we are lucky that she has left some of her magic with us; her poetry has helped me and many others to cope. she was possibly the most amazing women i've ever met, and i'm still in shock. four days later, my dad's friend mike died. i've known him for as long as i can remember, so even though i didn't much like him, it was unsettling to hear of his passing. i'm hoping that soon the sadness and problems will pass and that things will go back to normal, because normal is better now than it's ever been before.

posted by emma @ 4:52 PM 0 comments