*****

yay for fucking up everything twice in one week!

I hate myself today.  I have managed to break a guy's heart for the second time this week.  I broke up with Drew on monday.  He just found out that I almost had sex with his best friend two nights ago.  Yet he still says he loves me, which in turn breaks my heart because right now I feel like a gigantic monster.  I also kissed his best friend sunday night before I even broke up with him. 
What sort of person does this?   Am I really that horrible?  I never in a year considered cheating on Drew, but suddenly, I'm all over Paul.  Good God.  I  hate myself.
Now I've managed make Paul even more fucked up than he already was.  I may have ruined his chances with a girl he really likes.  I've also made him feel he needs to lie to his best friend.  I made him feel guilty and horrible about himself. 
I am a bitch.  Only a terrible person would do this to two people they care deeply about.  I have mananged to fuck up a great friendship over a bad bout of rebound lust.  In the process, I also hurt someone I once loved.
Today is not a good day.

posted by emma @ 2:11 PM